Day Dreamers

最后的雨天

2011-09-17T07:49:00.000-07:00

一直以来，
我都以为问题出现时
只要跟对方坦白就能解决
但，其实并不是这样
因为很多事情都很客观
你不喜欢的不代表别人会不喜欢
所以无论再怎么近都好
始终还是无法了解
也明白为什么
有时候倾诉对象何不选择当事人
因为若一而再，再而三的把问题提出
只显得自己有多笨，多脆弱
我，
多爱发牢骚~
多自私~
多小气
也许，
我应该找个倾诉者吧~

若我知道别人会在意
会在乎
我可以为了博取别人的信任
而减少一些不必要的摩擦因素
也许你没发觉
更没发现
但我就是这样地变了
我不渴望有任何的回报
只希望你能让我好过些
能吗？

也许，
有些东西本来就不适合碰
因为会遍体鳞伤
我最怕痛了
更讨厌痛
讨厌!
若会痛，也是自己找来的！
活该！

朗朗星空，
怎会下雨呢？
下雨哈哈哈哈！
以前的天空总是晴朗
现在
又下雨了
每次很难受很难受时
总会静静的下起雨来
那无声的雨，没人知更没人晓
不会有人体谅这雨天
说过了
这是最后一次！

郑汶芳，
为自己生活
为自己打气
为自己伤心
为自己难受
更要为自己开心，快乐！
万岁！要为自己努力！

不喜欢，真的讨厌

2011-08-27T08:54:00.000-07:00

也许是我性情较暴躁
又不爱受约束
所以不喜欢交待了又交待
一个人时
有一个人的自由
当全世界仅只是自己的陌生人
那，
会不会比较自由呢？
但，顿时却变得如此空虚~

人与人沟通不是包容就能容忍所有
因为我的心胸有限~

品味生活

2011-08-05T11:26:00.000-07:00

今天，很猖狂的笑了一顿
管它是很低笑点的笑
还是很白痴的笑

都很好笑~

与两位很要好的朋友聚一聚
感觉真的很棒
好久好久没有品尝三个人一起的时刻了
从以前疯疯癫癫，好玩，又爱笑的我们~
到如今各有各的生活
偶尔
我真的真的很想念有你们的日子
我曾经忽略了这单纯的快乐
所以，我都把我们的照片收着
提醒自己不要再忽略生活了

有时候
真的很没有毅力
一下就受动摇了
人性的弱点
你可以离我而去吗？
是的，我是应该记得有你们照着的日子

两个人的生活，也可以很简单
我就是喜欢这样~

My conscience

2011-05-29T23:08:00.000-07:00

First time,
feel like to cry.
The moment i walked out from the headmistress room,
my heart sank completely into the deepest part by realizing tat actually wat i done along these few years were all in their knowledge. Wasnt as wat i thought.
She approved.
Not because of moving house.
Not because of financial problems.
Not because of all sort of crappy reason.
Just because of the truth, no lies.
i told her, i just wanna change a new environment to try out smth new for my next stage of learning life.
Oh my~ i m just too dare to face myself.
She just agreed with me.
She tried to stay me n advise me to thk twice,
yet she still approved me. Oh my.~
May be i m not the first to be aprroved after appealing,
but her words is like she just understand wat i want n wat i need.
YES. i make a transfer not because of any others ( some would just thk tat i m, but just up to their mind )
just tat i wanna see how strong m i going to survive under a whole new surroundings to keep on my pace to the future.
just wanna see tat without any fame n power , could i still be so getting involve in whichever i interested within my own ability?
Somehow, i knw it isnt easy to get into with new friends under a strange environment.
I might need some times to adapt all this.
But i knw, different environment could bring me to face it with different attitude.
ATTITUDE do play the role in deciding everything.
Attitude decides ur mind. ur mind decides ur perception. ur perception decides ur behaviour.
ARGH. She STILL suggested few ways for me to hav a change for my environment.
May be, she expecting me to leave f6? n signaling me tat f6 is a no no way for u to succeed in ur field no matter which school u go?
ARGH. dunno why. just get touched with her deed.
A BIT lar. just A BIT.
Not thking too much~
decide to blank my mind~
let the fates to decide me~
n follow the GOD. =.=
Last but not least,
i m not penghua betrayer. ( I know, tis is just a personal guilty conscience which telling tat i m)
I transfer not because of anything,
just for myself.
I did it for myself.

Sorry, my mother school.

My Existence

2011-05-18T05:57:00.000-07:00

Mood swinging today.
Human tend to make mistakes even though they don't wish to.
I,
always commiting myself in those unwanted damn shitting mistakes.
Things rlly went out of control.
Feeling a lil of bad.

M i really exist?
why i cnt jusst like othrs existed human, pacing towards to get wat they want.
May be i just need some IMPROVEMENT?
Mentally & physically.

AND now,
U fully existed in MY world.

when all annoying one mixing together,
its rlly taste like-----SHIT!

杂菜饭

2011-01-19T08:40:00.000-08:00

清淡的水蒸玉蜀黍
健康的蛋炒苦瓜
简单的烘烤鱼
清甜的高丽花菜汤

虽并非什么三真海味, 但那是在别处总是无法寻到的味道
以前, 妈妈都爱惯例的把所有的菜肴堆满在饭上面
就如杂菜饭
然后再要我们大口大口地把饭给吃完
那时的我们都很傻,因为谁最快把口中的饭咬噘完毕, 就可得到妈妈的称赞
于是, 每次我都狼吞虎咽的吃完
我承认
妈妈厨艺一点都不优异
但, 她做饭的精神棒极了
总会为孩子的身体状况设下一日最健康的三餐

在求学时期时, 都没留意到妈妈在碗中种下的爱
近来, 都没什么机会吃妈妈亲自下厨的菜
我告诉妈
"你的饭是最特别最HOME RECIPE的"
他却回答
"你不要PERLI 我了啦, 你们每次都嫌我的饭菜难吃的啦"
仔细想想, 原来这些年来, 孩子都忘了对把自己照顾得无微不至的妈妈表达爱意
所以看着她做菜的背影
让我体会到孩子们亲口把饭啃完的重要性
因为那是幸福

习惯了

忙碌生活被闯进的小插曲

学着珍惜, 品尝及感受

不想太理智

若跌伤了

回头一望

你仍会像小时候为那泪流满面的我敷药

虽然口中斥骂我的鲁莽,但心中还是万分地疼

对吧?

温室里的丑小鸭

2010-12-11T09:08:00.000-08:00

人往往都爱追求一切美好，独特的事物。。。。
漂亮的衣服，美味的食物，永久的承诺，难寻的幸福
当然也少不了唯美的爱情。。。。
所有的初恋都是丑小鸭
当后来羽化成了天鸸的爱情
却又会怀恋当时脆弱又赤裸的初恋
有太多太贪婪的人
往往一而再，在而三地在人群中寻觅属于自己的避风港
希望自己拥有的初恋是完美的
但，却变得如此寒跄且狼狈
回首一眸
才发觉堆积了总总的遗憾
遗憾是一种幸福
因为至少还有令你值得遗憾的事物
温室里，隔着一层莫名的尴尬
使彼此止步前进
不透露任何思绪，
模糊彼此的焦点
或大家都如丑小鸭
一直把自己内心的最深处给隐藏起来
生怕他人知道自己
说好了不可以有动摇
但是不懂为什么，竟会有一股莫名的感伤
动摇了思绪
最后自己变成了笨小鸭
多不值！

无题

2010-07-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

今天

在公车上，有一群谈理想，谈梦想的年轻人

是的

他们都设好各自的目标，乘搭能使自己达到目的地的公车

在高声谈笑中

我感慨了

自己的成长似乎太突然

最近，看着别人写着自己的故事

让我不禁对他人各自的生活脚本有所感触

要开始的已开始

得经历的始终逃不过

该结束时纵然不舍

一块儿学习，

一块儿努力，

一块儿付出，

一块儿面对

一块儿冷战

一起哭一起笑一起疯一起骂

一切历历在目

过去发生的太多太多

来不及回顾

就得过去了

有时候

没来得及把心中的话说出来，忙碌的生活又把我们迅速的带到下一站

但

我曾经因我们的一切而感动

我不懂有多少人会合我一样珍惜这段感情

不过我早已把它珍藏起了

虽然我没表示但不代表我不在乎

我不喜欢公开的向大家炫耀我们的感情有多好

因为那太虚为了

构成一体的我们

并不是孤独的

沿途风景最美好的时光都有大家陪伴

太多的情绪

太复杂。。。。。。

12TH anniversary and annual campfire

2009-07-13T08:25:00.000-07:00

The day cry for us.

And she cry non stop for the whole day. During all the way of our preparation, the day rain everynite.
Once it rain, my hp will be recieving msg. ALL THE OC IS WORRYING!!
This make me feel touch.
But thn i believe tat if we rlly pray sincerely, the day will turn kindly to us.

Finally its out of our expectations,
the heavy rain dint stop. Frm morning untill nite.
We put our effort whole heartedly in tis campfire.
We sacrifice much n infinity time.
We never complaint n blame it .
COZ we re steping the same way together.
We work together under the hot sun
We pray togeteher in wet
N SUM EVEN CRY together in the rain when we gt to make a change.
Its a big life treatening for us to change the venue! How cum?! The whole setting we prepared turns wasted bcoz of the wether.
owh! During that time,we kno all the arguement is useless.Accepting the fact is the most logical action that we should do.
But, I RLLY HATE THE RAINING DAY! MY HEART IS LOADED WITH BEH SIOK FEELINGS!
tat time all the things going get so overwhelming n the only sane thing left to do is to determine till the end.
but thn , everything do hav it gud n bad
Changing the venue to hall indeed bring us succeed.
But i satisfy with it d.
i m pleased to see all my oc working hard.
coz I M NOT ALONE n
YOU LL NEVER BE ALONE TOO!
Anyway , our event still run off smoothly n gain quite gud reaction frm others school.
I M HAPPY! haha
BRAVO! i proud of u all!

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New way

2008-10-30T00:23:00.000-07:00

hmm......
tis is my first posted new blog
duno wat to write
but i think i will just left it blank
but anyway
my main purpose to create tis account
is bcoz of wana update myself...XD
haha
no la
act is to left comment to others....
swt lll