Fang's corner

Fucked up. Messed up. Im out of my mind Totally I dont know like what i want and what i feel at this moment anymore. Like people got their very right to go after for their happiness Why am i the one who have this nasty emotion coming in when knowing that the fact is there Right in front of you C’mon What u thinking? You know you are not capable to change anything and anyone You know every damn truth, yet you chose not to see it. & you let evil fantasies slipped into your thought. Once again, you feel stupid, naked and helpless. God DAMN, wake me up please!!!! Hey, so much more thing in this world need more attention & concern from you. Why you wanna wasted it on the person who doesn't need them from you? I KNOW I KNOW! But my mind kinda fucked up & i guess i know why people screw up life sometimes. You cant explain but you just did it tho its all against normalcy. I feel so incompetent, so i keep stuffing as much as knowledge to my head! I feel so ins

Hey you bitch! See how you've been holding up & guess what It's been more than a month since after the doom. Distractions like friends, work, tinder, music, guitar, alcohol sometimes...the list goes on & on Are the key reason that i am still surviving terribly now. It makes me forget things for a while & you came back to me again in whichever way you could. I wanna let the communication die off so i start learning not to text you and not to call you. But its so painful, deep down in my head in my memories you are everywhere. Every moment spent with you happened just like yesterday. Sorry, i feel so sorry to myself that i dont know how long im gonna do this to myself. So, I texted the girl who you might prolly already move on with I dint bitch her out or lash her out or anything, but just wanna her to know that your departure from my memories indeed giving me a hell full of hard time. & if years down the road, i wonder she will have the same

真的可以说不爱就不爱了吗？ 不喜欢就不喜欢？ 我对你付出的青春这么多年，换来的却是谢谢你的成全 我想，我永远都不懂得爱

这次真的很痛很痛很痛 每天早上醒来就感到很痛 哭到泪干了但还是每天都在哭 很想讨厌你因为很想你 但我却做不到 因为曾经太太太投入 太爱了 太相信 太幸福 太开心 太自由 没想到给了这份自由 结果换来的尽是背叛 很想爱你 但我已经没有这个能力 因为太痛了 面包与爱情 我选择了面包 这就是结局 不跟剧本的结局

And i was thinking that how much blessed i had from God That i can go chase dream while having my pillar support behind I will always remember how bold and courageous i can be to go for the things i want in life Knowing that there is always someone to back me up Yet, it turned out to be a fantasies that i fall so hard for Dream stay forever as dream I wish i dint make any move, wish i was still there. So, my dream wont be a dream now. My lovely baby girl, I will always love her no matter how much she merajuk. sayang her is my happiness and i will never get bored of her. My lovely baby cutie pie, I will always love you no matter how you merajuk. Sayang you is my happiness and I will never get bored of her. Words are just words. & they still touch my nerve so much. 

I said i dont wanna miss out any part of your life anymore You said its fine because we were working out for better future You never told me that our love fade But instead you are using the words of ‘feeling’ Said you dont have feeling towards me anymore Since when the love became just feeling So all the words are just words They means nothing but just cruel shit slap to my face My gut told me not to miss out any part of each other life anymore But my gut dint tell me that you already have somebody who can give you better than i can So, you left me all alone in the fantasies you built. You left. Forever. That hurts.