Fang's corner

我很勇敢地拾起满地碎片的玻璃 放下尊严 放下面子 我以为这份勇敢可以让我重拾过去 但 心还是一样的很疼 我不怪你提早离开 并没有要求你回来 但 回头一看 你给的并不多 就因如此 你给的越是珍贵 你的努力我越是珍惜 但 当你一一否定你说过的话时 我真的真的很很很心疼 你说你总是很少给承诺  所以你曾给过的 都是我就最珍贵的 这么多次不一样的字眼 不一样的时间 不一样的承诺 在一夜之间 突然你对它们的否定 全都变没有价值了 告诉我 你凭什么给了那么多 然后又要拿回 我很气 可但我更伤心 所有的勇气和信任都是你给的 我 不明白 到底是为什么 爱会变成你的包袱 对我 爱是期待 是希望 是包容 是你一步一步地带我走进来 你要我勇敢 可但 现在你却忘了要一起勇敢地面对未来的一切 你给了很多很多的不美好未来的假设 同时你忘了在你身上我见到的是对未来的憧憬 是什么让你变得不再勇敢 为什么 为什么都一样 说着给不到我要的 所以我不要求 说着我的包容对我不公平 所以不要我辛苦 时间 你好可怕 你让人忘记了要怎么继续勇敢 你让人忘记了要怎么继续维护 你让人忘记了要怎么继续渴望 你让人连变了都不懂为什嚒 差一些 我也快要把我过去拥有的像你一样从指缝中溜走 可现在 拾回了 却割伤了自己 我 真 的 好 疼 可我知道失去也会一样疼 我已经鼓起勇气了 你呢？ 'I will throw my voice into the stars and Maybe the echo of my words will be written for you in the clouds by sunrise. All I'm trying to say is: I will love you Through the darkness.' and now you said you forsee the darkness, but you re not going to walk through with me, are you? What are those words if you dont mean it?

Again... time... Space... and freedom... I live in life full of lies! And i hate it everytime u leave. Left only me, myself and I. How can I afford to lose again? tell me how much price i should pay for this? I never learn, is it? Or im the real psychic.

Time flies and here comes the final year of my unilife. So, we have decided to make use of our one week long sembreak to create some precious memory in current life chapter. And the destination we chose is Sabah- Borneo Island in Malaysia. Basically, I think our trip is kind of budget one. And this is a 4 days 3 nights trip . There is 7 of us throughout the whole trip. We've bought our two ways ticket during the airasia promo period which cost us for RM 260. (You might able to find a cheaper one though.) Alright, know what? We thought to get a short escape from the hot weather in Penang, who knows Sabah is having hazy weather that the scorching smell really irritates alot. So unlucky. The very first thing i like about this trip is the accommodation, not only the place is strategic but the hygiene is really good. We stayed in Marina Court Resort in Kota Kinabalu Town and did our booking through called in. It's only 6 min away from the airport. The guy is nice as the price...

Dear a corner called here, Things change when the time comes, right? You'd thought that you found a people who can share whatever shit in you and laugh hysterically with you And now You start doubting if the need of voicing out your thought You start to mind your crap whether stand a value to share You start to mind is the people the right listener You start to mind are you wasting each other time You start to feel uncomfortable when the topic get lesser and lesser You start to feel a gap when we re living a different life You start to stress out for no reason while spending time together and it's rather to stay not together You feel afraid to express because you knew the respond isnt gonna be a sincere one (maybe) You feel afraid to share the unhappiness because you knew the people got no words for you and not even putting themselves in your situation You feel the people dont understand your excitement your joy your fear You dont feel like telling because you...

Here's to the all the crazy ones who stay beside you all along the time. There's always good and bad happen which makes our life a beautiful mess. All these might eventually form an artistic picture, which others can never understand if they dint have any walk through your life. Of course, it wouldn't work if you're painting it alone. There's always one or two besties, or better be known as partner-in-crime that accompany and witness the different encounters in your life. And I shared lot of my little bundle of joy with mine one too. We wouldn't wanna miss out any special day or important occasion that make counts in each other life. We wanna be involved, participated or simply do nothing but just to stay accompanied with each other. So, I think the most beautiful experience of a woman's life would be- having your dream wedding comes true. If you were the bride-to-be, you'll be hoping that your close girls are all in nice dress with you during you...

What if you meet a self centered freak and the words really hurt you even with no intention? Cause i know, the words blurt out without intention is the real thought inside It's hurtful. It's the thought that count. I wish I thought I should and I suppose all for the future sake But know what? Being rational kills every of the idea i have on us. And you never know im tearing inside by your words. Which girl in this world doesnt hope to be treated and spoilt like a princess? I dint even dare to ask for more. Always putting myself in your shoes. Can you just dont think of US as a single individual itself? And why not think of US as one thing itself? Whatever. You go AWAY and WHAT RE YOU to want me go after YOU. Even with the tries, im still getting the same respond. I told myself all these are normal humanity. And now, i doubt.

This time, i am getting clearer to what i want and what i donot It's been two years I thought i feel comfortable living with em I thought if i do my part of job in bonding I thought if i really mix em with my real self I will someday find a position within it Somehow this day feels like never come effort made seems just having temporary effect And the feeling of dispatch getting stronger and stronger when im apart with em The saddening part is How am i gonna admit that i loved the atmosphere and people back then Once a friend told me that its like a broken-heart relationship where you feel u still loving yet you dont wanna touch that part anymore There's always be thousand reasons for u to push you away from the people you met and used to mixed around You tell yourself to get over it and best remedy is to face the fear deep down So you took up courage to step halfway inside the memory pieces again Then you found that still not too bad Once again you find back ...