Thursday, March 2, 2017

Confuse

I am running towards the hope every single day
Keep chasing
Woke up in the morning
The first thing i do was hoping for the good news from you finally reach me
I aint a very lucky person
I always couldnt get what I've been longing for
Tho with the hardwork and effort paid, the result is not what i really expected
But it never turns out too bad
Still, I always manage to achieve something good
But why, 
Why cant just im lucky for once & get a chance for what i want?
Could i just be better if I obey in accordance with what have been arranged?
Or is it just i dont understand myself enough that You think u might do the best choice for me

Despite all the trial i taken
I still receive no news on the thing I want
All I want is just to go really deep into something I'm passionate in  
But how could I not given a chance to do so?
Stay positive, this is what they told me
& the only thing i can do
Chance and luck
Where are you?
Do you really just passedby & I dint see you?
Or you're trying to challenge for my patience

Can I have a talk with You?

Monday, February 6, 2017

We're lost but we DON'T KNOW

I'd think that we are all living in a lost place that looked real and smelled real.
Our struggle is real.

'Some people like to trade whatever bits they have found of other things of value.
Sometimes they're of no value at all but it's become a bit of a sport now.
Money has no value- all we need is found readily on the streets- So,
there is no need to work for pay to provide for ourselves.
There is, however, a requirement to work to help a village, age, health, and other personal reasons permitting. Our occupations are more of a community service rather than for self-gain.'

This is the world i've been longing for. Will it be real one day?

Sunday, January 8, 2017

终场戏

致亲爱的你们,

很舍不得,真的很舍不得
我曾经怨天为什么没把我送远离家乡到另一个地方开启我大学生涯
但 我选择了接受并且兴奋地迎接来自不同地方和背景的你们
想要把你们所有都涌入我的怀抱 (对不起,我的占有欲强)
如今想象一个一个渐渐的要离开的你们
心情万分交集
很开心的与你们一步一脚印的创造了许多回忆
从逛街
吃东西
抄功课
赶功课
当司机
温习功课
作弊
吵架
泛泛之交
到坦诚相对
有开心的 有兴奋的 有愤怒的 有不爽的
这一切 教会我怎么用心真诚对待每个人来换取大家的坦诚
因为每个人都在每个人心目中预定了位子
只是座位排法随着时间不断改变
然后慢慢的
你们不分先后地 各自在我心里都定了无法改变的VIP位
很可笑的 有时大家忙着在大学里成长 要时间过快些因为要毕业
说着说着 真的毕业了
很心酸 因为每天与你们见面的时间突然没了
习惯了 在平时没人一起吃饭时 随叫随出的你们
想庆祝一些小开心或大开心的日子时 都可以和你们一起
最后 时间却残忍地宣告 我们的曲终
等待人散



永远的十分美,十分天真,十分幸福

Monday, December 5, 2016

Me in 23rd

Hey yea, so tired now. 
So here's the 23 years i spent with myself. 
And cause of too afraid that i might be left out by the fast rythm time,
i am doing as much as i can.
Even exceed what i can.
And i have pictures in my head
Ideal pictures that i want in my future
All these linger in my mind serve as timely alarm
awake me whenever im procastinating
awake me whenever im slacking
I have so much thing to accomplish
Though i try doing it, i am not sure whether the chance will come knock my door
The more i grown up, the weaker and smaller that i feel im

At this moment, i just wanna remeber
HOW AMBITIOUS I AM.

Thursday, October 13, 2016

朋友, 做错了

每次每次都会很真诚很真诚地面对每个人
希望每个人都活得安好
有什么 我就会坦诚
但 渐渐地我发觉这个方案并不受用
因为我在乎所以直言 因为我珍惜所以坦诚
怎么了
大家都无法接受自己丑陋的恶习
所以就算坦诚 别人只会当做是斥骂 当做是种不体谅
因为我体谅 尽管是错事所以当我替你盖了
因为我在乎 所以坦诚要你面对错误
曾经 我坚信沟通是能解决无所不能的问题
可是怎么现在却不管用了
也许 不管什么都不管
才是最好的
如果 你说的别人都不在乎 都没在听
你还会说吗?

时间不够用了 怎么还管啊?

Sunday, August 14, 2016

我,你 过去的勇气呢?

我很勇敢地拾起满地碎片的玻璃
放下尊严 放下面子
我以为这份勇敢可以让我重拾过去
但 心还是一样的很疼
我不怪你提早离开 并没有要求你回来
但 回头一看 你给的并不多 就因如此 你给的越是珍贵
你的努力我越是珍惜
但 当你一一否定你说过的话时 我真的真的很很很心疼
你说你总是很少给承诺  所以你曾给过的 都是我就最珍贵的
这么多次不一样的字眼 不一样的时间 不一样的承诺
在一夜之间 突然你对它们的否定 全都变没有价值了
告诉我 你凭什么给了那么多 然后又要拿回
我很气 可但我更伤心
所有的勇气和信任都是你给的
我 不明白 到底是为什么
爱会变成你的包袱
对我 爱是期待 是希望 是包容
是你一步一步地带我走进来 你要我勇敢
可但 现在你却忘了要一起勇敢地面对未来的一切
你给了很多很多的不美好未来的假设 同时你忘了在你身上我见到的是对未来的憧憬
是什么让你变得不再勇敢
为什么 为什么都一样 说着给不到我要的 所以我不要求
说着我的包容对我不公平 所以不要我辛苦
时间 你好可怕
你让人忘记了要怎么继续勇敢
你让人忘记了要怎么继续维护
你让人忘记了要怎么继续渴望
你让人连变了都不懂为什嚒
差一些 我也快要把我过去拥有的像你一样从指缝中溜走
可现在 拾回了 却割伤了自己





可我知道失去也会一样疼
我已经鼓起勇气了 你呢?

'I will throw my voice into the stars and
Maybe the echo of my words will be written for you in the clouds
by sunrise.
All I'm trying to say is:
I will love you
Through the darkness.'

and now you said you forsee the darkness, but you re not going to walk through with me, are you?
What are those words if you dont mean it?

Drop from Wonderland

Again...
time...
Space...
and freedom...
I live in life full of lies!


And i hate it everytime u leave.
Left only me, myself and I.

How can I afford to lose again? tell me how much price i should pay for this? I never learn, is it?
Or im the real psychic.