很伤心
很倒霉
最近到底怎么了
学业好像很坎坷
好难好难哦
是不够努力吗？
很冲动
一脚踢破了
裂了
但脚不感觉怎么痛
不过现在有点刺刺痛
很想发泄
但没有地方
长大le
我需要负上每件事情的责任
没人会来扛
要靠自己
很小气
因为小气所以心情容易受动摇
好多好多次都影响你了
很伤心
唉
呜呼
人可不可以不要长大？

今天是倒霉的一天

我要结束今天

睡觉

~借口

Sleepless Night~ due to .....

Kay. This post has no any attractive points to read.
I m just posting because of i have the mood.
Tonight, after doing revision with him in library,
he suddenly gt the mood to have cup of coffee.
So we went starbucks to take a night-high-coffee as supper.
Well. Have a nice inspired talk with him.
For me, achieving a target is just like you collecting points in a match.
We have to score in order to win.
But, seems tat i've neglected so many small little marks and just hoping tat i can reach the score as like everyone do.
He told me, i should actually pressurize myself in a moderate mode so that i cn do better thn now.
Haha. XD. I dunno whether i face any stress while studying,
OR just like he said, i seems very 'sang'.
I rlly hope that my effort is paid  but not just doing so hard for nothing. Everyone would wish so.
May be i should have treating my study more serious.
Coz i knw, i m putting not enough effort.
STPM result tells EVERYTHING.
Hope i wnt be the one who down in next year!
I wanna share the joy with you while you r doing the same thing to me~
STAY TUNED for my good news.
Thanks to you.





                                                                        Feeling bad while pawned by subjects,                                                                    
                                                                        but it makes me turn STRONGER!

最后的雨天

一直以来，
我都以为问题出现时
只要跟对方坦白就能解决
但， 其实并不是这样
因为很多事情都很客观
你不喜欢的不代表别人会不喜欢
所以无论再怎么近都好
始终还是无法了解
也明白为什么
有时候倾诉对象何不选择当事人
因为若一而再，再而三的把问题提出
只显得自己有多笨， 多脆弱
我，
多爱发牢骚~
多自私~
多小气
也许，
我应该找个倾诉者吧~

若我知道别人会在意
会在乎
我可以为了博取别人的信任
而减少一些不必要的摩擦因素
也许你没发觉
更没发现
但我就是这样地变了
我不渴望有任何的回报
只希望你能让我好过些
能吗？

也许，
有些东西本来就不适合碰
因为会遍体鳞伤
我最怕痛了
更讨厌痛
讨厌!
若会痛，也是自己找来的！
活该！

朗朗星空，
怎会下雨呢？
下雨哈哈哈哈！
以前的天空总是晴朗
现在
又下雨了
每次很难受很难受时
总会静静的下起雨来
那无声的雨， 没人知更没人晓
不会有人体谅这雨天
说过了
这是最后一次！

郑汶芳，
为自己生活
为自己打气
为自己伤心
为自己难受
更要为自己开心，快乐！
万岁！要为自己努力！

不喜欢，真的讨厌

也许是我性情较暴躁
又不爱受约束
所以不喜欢交待了又交待
一个人时
有一个人的自由
当全世界仅只是自己的陌生人
那，
会不会比较自由呢？
但， 顿时却变得如此空虚~

人与人沟通不是包容就能容忍所有
因为我的心胸有限~

品味生活

今天， 很猖狂的笑了一顿
管它是很低笑点的笑
还是很白痴的笑

都很好笑~

与两位很要好的朋友聚一聚
感觉真的很棒
好久好久没有品尝三个人一起的时刻了
从以前疯疯癫癫， 好玩，又爱笑的我们~
到如今各有各的生活
偶尔
我真的真的很想念有你们的日子
我曾经忽略了这单纯的快乐
所以，我都把我们的照片收着
提醒自己不要再忽略生活了

有时候
真的很没有毅力
一下就受动摇了
人性的弱点
你可以离我而去吗？
是的， 我是应该记得有你们照着的日子


两个人的生活，也可以很简单
我就是喜欢这样~

My conscience

First time,
feel like to cry.
The moment i walked out from the headmistress room,
my heart sank completely into the deepest part by realizing tat actually wat i done along these few years were all in their knowledge. Wasnt as wat i thought.
She approved.
Not because of moving house.
Not because of financial problems.
Not because of all sort of crappy reason.
Just because of the truth, no lies.
i told her, i just wanna change a new environment to try out smth new for my next stage of learning life.
Oh my~ i m just too dare to face myself.
She just agreed with me.
She tried to stay me n advise me to thk twice,
yet she still approved me. Oh my.~
May be i m not the first to be aprroved after appealing,
but her words is like she just understand wat i want n wat i need.
YES. i make a transfer not because of any others ( some would just thk tat i m, but just up to their mind )
just tat i wanna see how strong m i going to survive under a whole new surroundings to keep on my pace to the future.
just wanna see tat without any fame n power , could i still be so getting involve in whichever i interested within my own ability?
Somehow, i knw it isnt easy to get into with new friends under a strange environment.
I might need some times to adapt all this.
But i knw, different environment could bring me to face it with different attitude.
ATTITUDE do play the role in deciding everything.
Attitude decides ur mind. ur mind decides ur perception. ur perception decides ur behaviour.
ARGH. She STILL suggested few ways for me to hav a change for my environment.
May be, she expecting me to leave f6? n signaling me tat f6 is a no no way for u to succeed in ur field no matter which school u go?
ARGH. dunno why. just get touched with her deed.
A BIT lar. just A BIT.
Not thking too much~
decide to blank my mind~
let the fates to decide me~
n follow the GOD. =.=
Last but not least,
i m not penghua betrayer. ( I know, tis is just a personal guilty conscience which telling tat i m)
I transfer not because of anything,
just for myself.
I did it for myself.




Sorry, my mother school.