Fang's corner

Hey yea, so tired now.  So here's the 23 years i spent with myself.  And cause of too afraid that i might be left out by the fast rythm time, i am doing as much as i can. Even exceed what i can. And i have pictures in my head Ideal pictures that i want in my future All these linger in my mind serve as timely alarm awake me whenever im procastinating awake me whenever im slacking I have so much thing to accomplish Though i try doing it, i am not sure whether the chance will come knock my door The more i grown up, the weaker and smaller that i feel im At this moment, i just wanna remeber HOW AMBITIOUS I AM.

每次每次都会很真诚很真诚地面对每个人 希望每个人都活得安好 有什么 我就会坦诚 但 渐渐地我发觉这个方案并不受用 因为我在乎所以直言 因为我珍惜所以坦诚 怎么了 大家都无法接受自己丑陋的恶习 所以就算坦诚 别人只会当做是斥骂 当做是种不体谅 因为我体谅 尽管是错事所以当我替你盖了 因为我在乎 所以坦诚要你面对错误 曾经 我坚信沟通是能解决无所不能的问题 可是怎么现在却不管用了 也许 不管什么都不管 才是最好的 如果 你说的别人都不在乎 都没在听 你还会说吗？ 时间不够用了 怎么还管啊？

我很勇敢地拾起满地碎片的玻璃 放下尊严 放下面子 我以为这份勇敢可以让我重拾过去 但 心还是一样的很疼 我不怪你提早离开 并没有要求你回来 但 回头一看 你给的并不多 就因如此 你给的越是珍贵 你的努力我越是珍惜 但 当你一一否定你说过的话时 我真的真的很很很心疼 你说你总是很少给承诺  所以你曾给过的 都是我就最珍贵的 这么多次不一样的字眼 不一样的时间 不一样的承诺 在一夜之间 突然你对它们的否定 全都变没有价值了 告诉我 你凭什么给了那么多 然后又要拿回 我很气 可但我更伤心 所有的勇气和信任都是你给的 我 不明白 到底是为什么 爱会变成你的包袱 对我 爱是期待 是希望 是包容 是你一步一步地带我走进来 你要我勇敢 可但 现在你却忘了要一起勇敢地面对未来的一切 你给了很多很多的不美好未来的假设 同时你忘了在你身上我见到的是对未来的憧憬 是什么让你变得不再勇敢 为什么 为什么都一样 说着给不到我要的 所以我不要求 说着我的包容对我不公平 所以不要我辛苦 时间 你好可怕 你让人忘记了要怎么继续勇敢 你让人忘记了要怎么继续维护 你让人忘记了要怎么继续渴望 你让人连变了都不懂为什嚒 差一些 我也快要把我过去拥有的像你一样从指缝中溜走 可现在 拾回了 却割伤了自己 我 真 的 好 疼 可我知道失去也会一样疼 我已经鼓起勇气了 你呢？ 'I will throw my voice into the stars and Maybe the echo of my words will be written for you in the clouds by sunrise. All I'm trying to say is: I will love you Through the darkness.' and now you said you forsee the darkness, but you re not going to walk through with me, are you? What are those words if you dont mean it?

Again... time... Space... and freedom... I live in life full of lies! And i hate it everytime u leave. Left only me, myself and I. How can I afford to lose again? tell me how much price i should pay for this? I never learn, is it? Or im the real psychic.

Time flies and here comes the final year of my unilife. So, we have decided to make use of our one week long sembreak to create some precious memory in current life chapter. And the destination we chose is Sabah- Borneo Island in Malaysia. Basically, I think our trip is kind of budget one. And this is a 4 days 3 nights trip . There is 7 of us throughout the whole trip. We've bought our two ways ticket during the airasia promo period which cost us for RM 260. (You might able to find a cheaper one though.) Alright, know what? We thought to get a short escape from the hot weather in Penang, who knows Sabah is having hazy weather that the scorching smell really irritates alot. So unlucky. The very first thing i like about this trip is the accommodation, not only the place is strategic but the hygiene is really good. We stayed in Marina Court Resort in Kota Kinabalu Town and did our booking through called in. It's only 6 min away from the airport. The guy is nice as the price

Dear a corner called here, Things change when the time comes, right? You'd thought that you found a people who can share whatever shit in you and laugh hysterically with you And now You start doubting if the need of voicing out your thought You start to mind your crap whether stand a value to share You start to mind is the people the right listener You start to mind are you wasting each other time You start to feel uncomfortable when the topic get lesser and lesser You start to feel a gap when we re living a different life You start to stress out for no reason while spending time together and it's rather to stay not together You feel afraid to express because you knew the respond isnt gonna be a sincere one (maybe) You feel afraid to share the unhappiness because you knew the people got no words for you and not even putting themselves in your situation You feel the people dont understand your excitement your joy your fear You dont feel like telling because you

Here's to the all the crazy ones who stay beside you all along the time. There's always good and bad happen which makes our life a beautiful mess. All these might eventually form an artistic picture, which others can never understand if they dint have any walk through your life. Of course, it wouldn't work if you're painting it alone. There's always one or two besties, or better be known as partner-in-crime that accompany and witness the different encounters in your life. And I shared lot of my little bundle of joy with mine one too. We wouldn't wanna miss out any special day or important occasion that make counts in each other life. We wanna be involved, participated or simply do nothing but just to stay accompanied with each other. So, I think the most beautiful experience of a woman's life would be- having your dream wedding comes true. If you were the bride-to-be, you'll be hoping that your close girls are all in nice dress with you during you

What if you meet a self centered freak and the words really hurt you even with no intention? Cause i know, the words blurt out without intention is the real thought inside It's hurtful. It's the thought that count. I wish I thought I should and I suppose all for the future sake But know what? Being rational kills every of the idea i have on us. And you never know im tearing inside by your words. Which girl in this world doesnt hope to be treated and spoilt like a princess? I dint even dare to ask for more. Always putting myself in your shoes. Can you just dont think of US as a single individual itself? And why not think of US as one thing itself? Whatever. You go AWAY and WHAT RE YOU to want me go after YOU. Even with the tries, im still getting the same respond. I told myself all these are normal humanity. And now, i doubt.