I SEE the SMALLER me

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Dear you,

You thought you were strong before
And now you feel vulnerable coz you got literally noone to get your ass covered.

The first week living in a total different country with some familiar language
I just wanna say that its truly a kind of adventure i chose to take on
Tho seriously having homesick and i miss the life i have in back then
And i thought when im given a BIGGER chance i am eager enough to step into all kind of situation given
This week been an emotional one with lots of deep conversation i have in my mind
First time ever i feel like to escape & varnish
First time ever i feel so broken i feel i cant be myself
Coz im just so not comfortable in the position right now.

Move into new apartment change a new job & life gets tougher.
Coz apparently i dont really know if i can perform beyond of what i ve signed up for.
Settle things down, live a life, observe how people do it; i maybe able to adapt it soon, too.
Buy necessities on a tight budget, run your own errand after work.
Small lil things always interupt while you're into work. Shit to clear.

I really dont know how much i able to breakthrough for the challenge i decided to undertake
Let's call it GROWTH.

Now, dont let yourself down. You're the only one who can make change of your life.
Give & Take.
I wish none of my part is taken away.
I hope im not counting down. But im already. I MISS YOU badly. :`(


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