The struggle

So what now?
You see clear that all human are born to just pay responsibility on themselves.
People just do whatever to get what they want. You see their selfishness. Their brainless actions. With cold eyes.

And for all these years,
we keep struggling for a better person, better nation and better tomorrow.
Though im having really strong feeling to get away from this land, yet feeling too vulnerable to seek way out. There is no guarantee that leaving here to out there able to get me a better life. But at least i know that my effort is not fooled and controlled by this country.
Younger time defeated by education system. Elder time am i gonna just be a slave of this society?

Inflation. Currency. Knowledge. Capability. Financial.
All these big words made me seems so small in front of them. Tiny. Shameful.
I dont even know what im doing now will it be leading me to the path that i want.
Ultimately, people want pride and money. And is this my ultimate goal?

I just wanna live a different life. And makes every life counts as the way i wish.
Is that so hard?
It seems always tough. And i hate it every time when i feel i can do it but i knew i cant.